29 Jan 2009

J.B.:

"You have no business trying to find out where God is leading - the only thing God will explain to you is Himself." Oswald Chambers My Utmost for His Highest July 8


I think I found out what's wrong and I realized that during last night's prayer meeting.

I lack the desire and the delight to be with the Lord.

This is really hard to admit. For the past two weeks or so, I have become fixated on the idea of marriage and having a family, what with the two weddings that I emceed in this month. I'm not sure but what I know is that I never get to that point in my life before when I constantly think of getting married (because first of all, I'm single) and being fixated at it had thrown me off - I think about it a whole lot to the point that I hardly know myself! This is what fading feels like.

I am grateful that once again, the Holy Spirit guided me and let me know what needs to be paid attention to. Grabe, 'yun na 'yun! That's what's been wrong! I had given more time on daydreaming than on the Lord.

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