2 Mar 2009

Last weekend, I didn't choose God. I chose what I thought I ought to accomplish but I ended up with nothing.

I decided to stay home. I waited for a package that didn't come, played the piano, set off to an errand that was fruitless.

Now I feel unsteady (bloated?) and I blame the lack of tea (I used to drink everyday but since the package hasn't arrived yet. . . ), too much sitting, worrying about surviving another week which already seems unproductive. haaay. . .

"Yet he (Abraham) did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what He had promised." Romans 4:20-21

I feel like there's a lot I need to do and I'm afraid I'm turning a deaf ear, staring blankly, wanting to be left alone.

I lack consistency. I have ideas, resources, talent, that are not put to good use. I blame the demands of my work. I seek change but lacks the faith.

"We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through FAITH and PATIENCE inherit what has been promised." Hebrews 6:11-12

J.B.