7 Feb 2009

It does seem that sometimes nothing is happening, that the Lord may have forgotten to turn His gracious hand to me and that I am merely experiencing nothing - nothing whatsoever in my work, in my duties, in my relationships.

When this happens, I'd want to escape whatever monotony this is - the small town where I live, the car that I drive, the usual people I deal with. What I don't realize is that God has been teaching me something. If I don't change my heart, the changes that I am seeking will not happen. The first step in changing heart is obedience. Obeying with Jesus in mind.

"He never insists on obedience, but when we truly see Him, we will instantly obey Him." Oswald Chambers My Utmost for His Highest July 19


This unrest is evidently rebellion. I am struggling with the way things are because of my lack of faith and unforgiveness, because I keep thinking of myself and not delighting in finding Him.

Heavenly Father, thank you once again for your grace and mercy. May your Holy Spirit be always upon me so I can learn to trust in you with all my heart and not lean on my own understanding.

J.B.